Which Princess Bride Character are You?
this quiz was made by mysti

Still on strike, with no end in sight. hmm, i am trying to arrange my life in a way that will make all of these days off profitable, but i have surgery on wednesday in the middle of the day...maybe they will change it to earlier, then i can go to work after that.

It's 9, almost 30 on a saturday night...i like how i burn myself out all week long so that by saturday night i go home at 7 to take a nap. Gross. even grosser is the fact that i laid in my bed for an hour and almost a half and slept for, at most, four minutes. GROSSER. So i have about 350 dollars for surgery right now...not bad. my dad billed some customers so i may even be able to save the money i have been saving for surgery for a car!!!!! FANTASTIC! God is so much fun sometimes. He figures everything out for me...one of these days i'll remember that in the midst of a bad day and actually ACT on it.

last night i was in such a gross mood. not even sure why...except that i was way burned out from threee 14 hour work days in a row combined with staying out way past the pm the nights inbetween. Seems like a reasonable explaination to me. Still, driving home all i wanted was to fall asleep in his arms...not even IN his arms, just near them. maybe i just wanted to feel protected...to take a break from being in charge and protecting and loving, and just to BE loved and protected. I love my kids so much, SO MUCH..sometimes i feel like i'm in a bad relationship though...you know? kids are just kids, and i know that they really do love me--they try at least--but more often than i can take in successive fourteen hour days, i feel like my life is full of unrequited love. Charlie, don't stand on the armoire you fall and hit your head on the door frame, i don't want you to get hurt. Charlie, please get down, i know you're very big but the ledge isn't big enough for your feet. Charlie, GET DOWN. Ok, ok, what hurts the most? lets get ice. I'm sorry you're hurt, next time get down when i ask.

and so on and so forth

we talk about listening and respect and obedience all the time...and sometimes it's hard for four and five year old boys to remember the difficult concepts. Sometimes, after hour upon hour of scolding and boo-boo kissing i feel...hmm. i guess i don't really know how to explain it exactly. some sort of a mix of disappointment in my self, sadness, dejection, unloved-ness, frustration, love, hope, and a few other things. Mostly being a 19 year old mom of three, or four, or six, wears me out emotionally and i can't really handle it by the end of some nights. I feel like i need positive reinforcement about who i am, on the inside and the outside.

anyway, i will try to finish this after church. now it's 3...i need sleep.