My professors are on strike. for how long, no one really knows, but i do know that i am going to make an extra $50 tomorrow because of it. and there's nothing wrong with that. posible outsomes of this strike:
- A few, much needed, days off of school with no repercussions to me as s tudent
- 6-10 days off of school. which would mean that rescheduled classes cut into my Christmas break
- 11+ days off which will most likely lead to a cancelled semester. And definately if there are 20 or more days of classes cancelled

so, i decided that if they cancel the semester, i'm moving to bali and taking up coconut carving as a career...actually, i'm thinking that i'll take the spring semester off too and either work...or be on real world--although, i am not the one dictating that decision. My goal for tomorrow is to write a sardonic something or other to tear into the flesh of the president at my oh-so-administratively-disabled college. hopefully it'll work, meaning that i will be creative enough to come off like Swift (a modest proposal--baby eating, read it if you haven't yet)

anyway i'm going to nap now before i go out. g'night = )

i don't understand why it's okay for me to trust God with everything, except money. it's not like my family has never struggled with money. and it's not like God hasn't always provided for EVERY need, and a lot of our wants. for some reason i just get really stuck on it...i don't know if it's so much not trusting as just plain getting angry.

see i have this mole on my palm, right? it's about the size of four of these periods....put together ina box shape. TINY is what i'm getting at here. i freaking went to the surgeon and he's like "ok" we'll take it off. i ask his secretary what it'll cost..."well...about $300 for the surgeon, $100-150 for the pathologist, $100 for the patholoGY, more for the novacaine and $7 or 800 for the hospital fees. it's hard to REALLy say though it depends on what the hospital says." ok, so. maybe i wouldn't have such a big problem with this expense if the surgery was going to take longer than FIVE MINUTES! why? i don't understand it at all. "oh, it's okay though because you're insurance will pay for it." right. hmm, maybe you haven't met me before but my health insurance pays for things only if i am admitted to the hospital and after a $2500 deductible is paid PER PERSON in my family. yeah, sure the insurance will pay for it. maybe i would be okay with it more if i wasn't getting my wisdom teeth out ten days later, and not going to ANOTHER doctor the night of my surgery to get OTHER cancer moles looked at.

so, yeah. i know that God will provide. my mom is just like, you have to go. don't worry about the money. that's easy to say isn't it? whatever. this isn't helping me feel better so i am going to shut up now. there's a worship service for habitat in 25 minutes. i need it. that'll be good. i'll write about a retarded school board next time...this is bound to be good.