AWESOME! why didn't you mention that on the phone today?!?!?!?!?!?!?!? probably becasue you posted that two days ago hmm....well, tell us all about it!

anyway, helen news...hmmm, new person-new code name: squash. everybody got that one? we'll see how this evening works out, i'm getting a little nervous about tomatoe paste adn squah together, i hope that they don't become friends. really, i shouldn't even think abou tit because the fact is that "the boys" probably won't show. at least i invited them, meaing that i called T.P. for a reason other than asking ot borrow something. always a plus.

i lov eyou girls, today's beena good day adn i'm looking forward to tonight. now i am going to take a pee adn a nap--not simultaneously. byefor now

Thoughts on men from auntie penny

1. The nice men are ugly.
> 2. The handsome men are not nice.
> 3. The handsome and nice men are gay.
> 4. The handsome, nice and heterosexual men are married.
> 5. The men who are not so handsome, but are nice men, have no money.
> 6. The men who are not so handsome, but are nice men
> with money think we are only after their money.
> 7. The handsome men without money are after our money.
> 8. The handsome men, who are not so nice and somewhat
heterosexual,don't
> think we are beautiful enough.
> 9. The men who think we are beautiful, that are
> heterosexual,somewhat nice and have money, are cowards.
> 10.The men who are somewhat handsome, somewhat nice and have some
money
> and thank God are heterosexual, are shy and NEVER MAKE THE FIRST
MOVE!!!!
> 11. The men who never make the first move, automatically lose interest
in
> us when we take the initiative.
>
>
> NOW ....WHO IN THE HELL UNDERSTANDS MEN?
> Men are like a fine wine. They all start out like grapes, and it's a
woman
> job to stomp on them and keep them in the dark until they mature into
> something you'd like to have dinner with.

So, last night after i got off the phone with camm, and wrote a paper, and blogged i checked this other girl's blogger (the same one that wrote the poem. her post was called "the scars still remain" here's the site address.

http://starryme.diary-x.com/

why am i posting this? well, what other reason could there be besides the fact that i wanted to email it to tomato paste. thankfully i recognized my apparent fatigue, and just signed off and went to bed. what sucks most is the besides the emotional scars that'll probaby stick around a while, i have this nasty scar on my abdomen as a permanent reminder of mistakes made...I have a hard time blaming it on God's not so funny senese of humor--more so on myself.

Now wait. i woke up today in a decently good mood--save waking up 45 minutes late and not being able to shower (i smelled, shower was necessary, it'll have to wiat another day!)--and my whole day has not been bad in the least. I don't want either of you to perceive me right now as being horribly depressed or anything like that. I think that i'm merely coming to grips with reality...it kind of sucks, but i have to realize it before i can get over it right? right. Steph, real world and the osbournes await us, kim we'll miss you as we fil our sould with filth--at least the filth is oh-so entertaining!!!!! I love you both so very much

wow, so much happened today. it was great. played some frisbee, wen tot school, saw BOTH my best friends in ONE day, read bride amgazies with a very attractive young man (and his two friends, and steph) at borders, came home talked with Camm on the phone for an hour, wrote a paper...and now i'm blogging. spending so much time around guys today (i haven't really hung out with guys since like january) made me start to think that maybe God will replace the "guy" part of my life...we'll see. i want to say so much more, but i have to get up at 6. i love you both so so so much

well hello girls. hello, hello. it would be interesting to track the cycles of my mental processes about tomatoe paste...like tonight, jeanna and i were walking around lake arlington and she asked me if i thought he and i would ever actually get back together. my answer? well it would certainly be convienient for me...hmm. a few days ago i was praying for it to happen like that, at 8:45 i was all selfish about it, and now--i'm done. i know i say that a lot, and for some reason i change my mind...maybe cause it's hard to be done. like really hard. maybe i can use the fact he works for my dad as an excuse. how am i supposed to forget about him with the seemingly endless tie to my family, and almost daily household converstaion? LAME EXCUSE. and i know it. i need to let go, really i do. Maybe i need another guy--JOKING!!!! totally playin off of steph's man replacement observations in her most recent blog. anyway, i'm gonna get some sleep now. i love you both dearly