There's something inherently wrong with the way life works...i don't know if i can put my finger on it exactly, but i may try. First, i would like to point out that "wrong" doesn't really mean wrong, as in incorrect, it meanst hat it confuses and confounds helen at this present moment--basically.

here we are in the "best years" of our lives...committed to school, church, work, family, friends, and hopefully above all else we are committed to God. What exactly are our priorities? take for instance my day today. I woke up and prayed for probably ten minutes before i got out of bed and then my sister beckoned me to be an audience for her "this is my life" story hour...after which i got ready for work, practiced guitar, and talked with my mom. I high-tailed it to my job a folded, hung, and traightened clothes for seven hours before i ran to my car and sped to my neighbors to put two crabby children to bed. after which i proceed to watch 3 and a half hours of trading spaces on TLC. IF i were an alien watching me frm outer space, i would think that my priorites basically matched those of everyone else on this planet--relax, make money, relax...my challenge is this: how does my seemingly normal life represent Jesus Christ in this world? The fact that i pray for a little while when i wake up doesn't seem to echo any blatant difference in me from everyone else in the universe. I think the part that blows me away the most is how different my life appears to those around me. THAT, my friends, is evidence of grace. and i am more than thankful for it.

We are given the opportunity to live in the world, and avoid being "of it." Which, as basically as i can ascertain, gives us the opportunity to enjoy and endure all the "normal" things while leading a life devoid of the emptiness and fear that so many are engulfed in. Does that make sense to you? the fact that at one five second expanse of time in your life you chose Jesus, adn that choice has opened up a compeletely different, and yet disturbingly similar, life to you? I am flabergasted. really, i walk into work and people ask me how i am...i have to opportunity to share with them this increbible life i have been given...what astonished me even more is when people don't care. They live how they feel like living and are completely apathetic to any opportunity that crosses thier path to make it more full and complete.

People need Jesus. some even know that they need Him...THAT, my friends, is the ripe field. There are soemt hat still need ot be worked,a dn watered, and fertilized...there's a lot of work ahead of us. the only way to finish the work is to start...here i go!

PERFECT!

NOW it's time to sleep. as long as this one works right.....

I AM A GENIUS!!!!!!!! wow. that feels good. now, as long as steph doesn't hurt me for setting her stuff up while she's away in the alnd of oz then everything will be just dandifull. now it is time to sleep.

I'm testing steph's blogger name.

Dang it! SO FRUSTRATING!!!!!!!! I wish it would just work how i want it too. no such luck today. well. maybe tomorrow.

Testing again

Hello. just testing something out here

There's something inherently wrong with being at school for 14 consecutive hours in a day. does anyone else agree with me? it's not that i mind the classes. i am more than elated about being able to graduate early and take a semester off to go on a misions trip...well. i guess that's the end of my complaining = ) It's time for me to focus on the empowerment that i am being given through the knowledge that i am obtaining...and if anyone knows what stroboscopic movement is, please let me know!

Talk about frustrating, i'm trying to set this dang blogger up and i can't get it to email to anyone else. as much fun as it is to just sit and talk to myself everyonce in a while, i'd like to start this thing for real. GOODNESS. that's all. really, i know it'll work out just great and all. mmhmm that's right.

Did you ever notice how life seems abundatly more clear and massively less understandable the more tired you get? Like right now. i'm writing to no one...but for some reason i believe that there is someone out there reading this. to you, i say hello. my head feels so incredibly full, and i still cannot think, or process any information. Ah, the diachotomy that is life. how exciting.